I rather time never existed

不要用我的爱来伤害我

Saturday, May 10, 2008

9:30 AM |

Bro-in-law's(BIL) sister & her bf drove me & Baoling to TM.
then we walked around, shopped.
saw Stephanie BF, hug her & chatted :D
then go separate ways,
BIL sister called me, said they going back alrd.
so left w/o Baoling as she wanted to get stuffs.
we went to fetch my sister, Darren & Darron.
then headed to furniture shop, wait for them (sister's father in law) to close shop.
went lao ba sa to eat seafoods & then went loyang tua pek kong to see see, pray.
left for Changi Airport,
& we actually lost our way inside th airport, @ th office thr.
cos it was very quiet & thr wasnt any ppl.
fooking scary.
we wanted to have Swensens, but thr was a long queue.
so settled at Macdonalds, & saw LeeJieYun.
ate, slacked & homed after that.

its a disgrace to have a 亲身姐姐 like you.
i think my friends, cousins treat me better than how you treat me.
you always come to me when you need my help, talking to me nicely.
i tot when i had helped you, you will help me when i need & you will talk to me nicely when i need your help.
but its all wrong.
not only did you not help, but you shouted.
you gave attitude.
its a torture living with you for 15years.
fighting every night b4 our sleep was a daily routine for us.
so we sleep in separate beds,
last yr i slept on th floor, yep. this yr your turn's to sleep on th floor.
& you did.
we dint had a fight as often after this.
but things arent getting any better too ~
since when did you talk to me like how you talk to 大姐?
& mum always tell you, you only have 1 妹妹, but you told her, so what.
you treat your friends 100x better than how you treat me.
its seriously enough.
mayb in our past lives, we're not fated to be sisters but enermy.
i cant be bothered much, as happy or not th day will pass.
th time won't stop for me.
but it still can't stop my tears from flowing when my mind flashes that i have a sister like you.

sighs, i miss th past with my brother in law.
if there's a chance for me to go back to th past, i'll choose not to be close to be with my brother in law.
cos i misses how he treats me in th past, how he dotes me in th past now.
nobody knows how close i am with him.
but now, he's a toally changed man.
he always brings me out, buy me things in th past, during my primary sch days.
he dotes on me th most.
when my sister or mother scold me, he always help me & so.
why did he change so much ?
i cant stop thinking of those past,
all these years he's th best to me.
& he leave just like that.
everybody's trying to help him out.
my heart aches.
why cant he just understand whats impt & whats not.