im feeling real down ~
whenever i think of things , i started to cry -.-
i dunno why, but real down.
i dunt feel like talking to anyone ?
i wanna be alone, in a corner. no one w/ me.
thinking of what th hell i've been doing this yr.
this yr pass so fast.
exams , next week. holidays, soon.
baoling & kristie talked sense into me.
i've regretted for whatever dumb things i've done.
but whats th use ?
this world isnt fair. as writting all these, i cant control my tears.
alot of thanks to carmen cheok (:
she told me this ,
honey honey , you're not bad lur .
When im down , had probs with dex. you encourages me , uds ?
maybe you might think that cheering ppl up is nothing , but at the saddest point , you are there for me <3
but deeply , truely inside , you need to know , you're not that bad after all.
You're a great one , you didnt know .
my family didnt lik me too . this world is just so xian shi .
they only see whats on the outside , not the inside .
they never want to listen to whatever explainations .
lik tchers , principles , family . they're always right , which i feels unfair.
in my family , whatever I've done is wrong , even if i score well , they'll say not good
but when my brother doesnt , they'll say , good boy , try harder . seriously , i hate the way they treat me .
deeply inside , you still love your family , dont you ?
the 10months , she had you in her stomach , been through so many things
to give birth to you , yep , it is . the beginning of school reopen at july ,
you told me , you wont skipped school anymore . you will .
study hard in school , listen to tchers , you dont wna fail .
you really have to mug hard , girl <3
tell them , you are willing to change for the better .
if they know that you wont , prove to them
not change for the best at one go , slowly improve it .
tak a lil lil step at one go .
by the end of this or next year , slowly , you can
& you need to know , i will be there for you . <3
but you must see , friends can be there too .
Or you slowly talk to them , tells them how you feel inside .
my mother never gets to uds me until the day she saw me doing silly things .
im not asking you to , but , maybe their care is shown in other way ?
maybe what i've said , you didnt really want to listen , or hear .
but , really , it is tough to change , but i know , you can ,
everyone can , they will support you (:
thanks for that (:
its really touching, your words make my heart stopped beating .
Vivian daughter told me all these (:
mum , you will be back . we're all waiting to see th crazy & always laughing pingping . don bother about anything now , just focus on your exams , show mrvanan , show your family & others , that you can do it . of course, me , & your other friends are all behind you . pingping , just do your best in everything . you don owe a explanation to anyone , if you done nothing wrong . now , nothing matters , except for exams . cheer up & don let other things affect you , okay ?
well, tml just tell your classmates & mrvanan , that you din intend to steal th phone . just misunderstanding . ask him to listen to your explanations first . people lik him , won't believe others easily der. mum , its th effort that counts .
we will believe you , trust you . we're always here for you , till th end of time . i promise * <3
daughter, thank you alot.
wait for th crazy pingping to be back okay & always di siao-ing ppl.
you're always loved (:
aft all these things happened, i found out that im so weak, uber weak.
i dint know that i would fall so easily,
all along, i tot i was strong.
i was th one always encouraging ppl, cheering ppl up.
now ? its th other way round.